Maybe there’s a God above, but all I have ever learned from love, was how to not let my self get hurt again. This time my faith was strong, but at the same time I needed proof, and the truth came shocking on the news. I’ve cried so many tears in my life, and now I’m have cried my last, but still it feels like I’m crying all the time. I’m bleeding inside and my face rolls down with the tears, and I can’t manage to pick it up.
I did my best, but I guess my best wasn’t good enough. I can’t seem to find some answers, not the ones I’ve been looking for. And know I’m tired of looking, I’m tired of living, and it all feels like one big black hole that’s slowly drags me in. And soon I can’t hold back, every time I’m getting nearer and nearer that black hole. Maybe all my pain goes away in that hole? Who knows?
I remember the days we met, you always made me laugh. You always had those really bad jokes, but still I had to laugh even though I didn’t like them. No I miss those jokes, and I’ve even forgotten how to laugh. Someone, please help me laugh again. I often call your name, hoping you’ll answer, but the silence does me time after time. Why so lonely, why so mad, why did you leave? You promised!