I wake up to cloudy skys
A broken heart and teary eyes
My days seem to never end
And my broken soul will never mend
I live in an eternal night
Always alone, no one in sight
I do not see a life ahead
But the fact its there is what I dread
I wish to remain in an eternal dream
Where nothing is what it seems
Where I can see the light above
Where I create a world full of love
For today the world we live in
Is a massacre full of sin
A place I wish not to be
Horrors I wish not to see
As my days are full of rain
I also feel a constant pain
For I am haunted by my past
I remember my first day and my last
My first days when I was sane
And my last as I put the razor to my vein
It was this world I wished to leave
But by my suicide I was deceived
For it was then after
I did not hear the laughter
Nor the heavenly angels, welcoming me
To live in their world where I could fly free
Instead I was cursed with eternal damnation
Where on this earth I see each coming nation
They come and go yet here I stay
For what I've done, I must pay
I am not alive, nor am I dead
And I do not know what lyes ahead
I shall wander this earth alone
For it was my soul, that I disowned.
( I wrote this last night because I wondered...where do you go when you kill yourself? couse in the Quran it says that you don't go to heaven nor do you go to hell yet you live an enternal punishment. but it does not say what that punishment is...so I thought that maybe the punishment was the opposite of you wanted by taking your life…..in other words by committing suicide you wish to leave this world but instead your damned to it forever…. so yeah I know this an odd poem but I hope you all liked it……any comments will be greatly appreciated )