I keep waking up, in all these different rooms
Still opening my eyes without you, the day starts with tears
With a cigarette in my hand and razorblades in the other
I doesn’t seem to bother poisening my self all the time
Pretending that you don’t excist, is not helping my hazel heart
I so badly wanna squieze the tears back, and face the reallity without you
But then over and over again, I know I can’t get over it
Even now, when I have all this time for my self, your’e still sitting next to me
Next to me in the blue sofa, with the remotecontrol in your hand
With that same empty look in your eyes
Then you walk away
Again
In some kind of wierd way or another, I still keep on living my life based on our memory
Though I try to not look back, but forward, your’e still in the back of my head
Reminding me of what jused to be
I wanna be the person that takes the next step
But as usual I blamed my past, and my proudness
I really wanna change my self, but it is as if you stopped me
I can’t do anything right, though I neighter was good at it before
But what I can do, is hopeing
That every day that goes by, mayby there’s a closer change for you to come back to me
Though our feature together just keeps on rottening
I keep on telling my self that you only need time
But what you really need
Is anything else but me
I wanna be the person who changes everything
But then I got to change my self first
Because you see, I still love you
I will always love you
I wan’t you back so badly that if you did returned, but broke my heart again,
I would still love you
I wouldn’t regret it
Though I know it won’t happen
I know you will be right where you are now
Because the day you left me
I allready knew then that it was for good