I remember the way I felt...

The fear..

The pain..

The disappointment..

When I felt your fist against my face..

Your strong hands around my neck..

Beliving you would kill me this time...

Struggeling to breathe..

Hoping to survive...

Just one more time..

Passing out...

waking up pretending it never happened..

That it was just one more bad dream..

Hoping it was the last time..